Drama

Today was mildly traumatic. One of my cats started limping last night and it seemed like there was something wrong w/ her paw, but of course she wouldn't let me get a good look at it. I brought her to the vet this morning after getting the OK from my mini-boss, and it turns out she had a nail that had grown into her paw pad b/c I must have skipped it last time I clipped her nails! Poor thing! I felt horrible, she was screaming and her foot was bleeding and it was awful. The vet suggested I stay with her to moniter her for the rest of the day, and today wasn't an actual work day, just my company's holiday party/lunch/then they go home b/c they're too drunk to work...So I called to explain what was going on and my mini-boss was a total bitch to me. She honestly expected the holiday party to be a higher priority for me than the well-being of my furry child. I don't understand it. Not to mention I was obviously upset from what had happened to my cat (it really was very traumatic for her & me both!) and my mini-boss just didn't care. So now there'll be hell to pay at work tomorrow. I'm bringing cookies as a peace offering for everyone, and I'm just not talking to my mini-boss about it. She always tries to make me feel bad for doing something like taking a lunch break, so missing a whole day is pretty apocolyptic (although she comes in late 4 out of 5 days per week and takes sick days a few times per month). Oh well. I know I made the right decision. I don't care about this job anyway and am leaving VERY soon.

I've been doing really well eating raw...I probably had a bit too much fat today but I really don't care, it's one day. I did notice that the stress of this morning gave me a killer headache and completely zapped my energy for the rest of the day. I never made the connection before between stress/negative energy and feeling like crap (b/c I used to feel like crap much more often and get headaches almost daily!). It was so weird to NOT feel energetic and good- and having a headache seemed so foreign! Anyway it just reinforced the fact that I need to surround myself with positivity even during difficult times. This is something I have to work on.

FOOD!
-smoothie w/ 2 bananas, frozen mango, blueberries & strawberries, a splash of fresh-squeezed OJ and a splash of water..then another banana b/c I was still hungry! I also grabbed 2 brazil nuts & 2 raw almonds. Oops.
-banana, apple & 1.5ish cups of super good grapes when the vet crisis was over
-cashew cookie lara bar (How do these only have cashews & dates in them? They're so good I almost feel guilty eating them!)
*4 mile run* pretty crappy but I got through it
-apple, plum, banana
-salad w/ romaine, mixed greems/arugula, red & yellow peppers, carrots, cucs, tomatoes, cauliflower, raw ACV

Clearly I still need to work on eating bigger, less frequent meals. It just doesn't feel natural to me- I've always been a grazer and I like eating often and never feeling too full or too hungry. I'm on the fence about eating just 3 times a day. I'll see what happens. I should try eating just 4 times a day to start. It's tough when I'm working, but maybe during my time off next week I'll get into a pattern or something.

Oh and all of my clothes are officially falling off of me. Actually my tank top that I was wearing under my long-sleeved race T-shirt quite literally fell down my shoulders while running today! And don't get me started on those damn running tights, they are anything BUT tight and it's really annoying to have to pull them up at every red light. Oh well, I still like getting skinnier!