Ooooh the Cravings...

I am detoxing like MAD. I feel like crap, I look like crap, I'm tired as crap...basically it's just a load of crap. I know it must be done. I know I'll be better off for having gone through it. But it still sucks! Probably the worst part is the cravings. OH MAN. I could literally kill someone for some hummus on a nice, thick, warm slice of chunky brown bread right now. I need to stop thinking about it! I am stuffing my face with raw foods, eating too much raw fat, anything I can do to keep from going crazy and/or eating cooked foods.

Now, I am not against eating small amounts of healthy cooked vegan foods on rare occasions. But I don't want to just give into the cravings when my body is obviously working so hard to get some bad stuff out. I am going to lunch at my favorite cafe on Friday and will probably have some cooked food then and be fine with it. But right now I'm in battle mode, and I am NOT going to give in! I feel it's important to get through this bout of detox eating totally raw so that I'll have the confidence to get through the next one.

Raw foods haven't been looking appealing to me, which is weird. I mean sure, bananas and lara bars are ok, but they're not what I really want. I just have to get through it. I am doing this for my future and because I believe it's the best way to live to respect the Earth and follow my true path. One cooked meal won't really deter me, but it would make it much easier, in this vulnerable state, to eat another cooked meal, and then another. That's what happened last time I was eating raw. I do not want to go back to primarily cooked foods EVER again.

Food today:

-green smoothie w/ the usual fruits, kale, water. 3 bananas w/ some raw cacao powder. Half a Lara Bar. Toooooo much food.
-2 bananas, Lara Bar, apple
-2 bananas
-small bag of baby carrots, 2 bananas w/ raw cacao powder, apple, half Lara Bar (out of all my salad stuff- how sad!)

So there ya have it. It is not a good day, not by a long shot. For whatever reason the Lara Bars are hard to stay away from right now. But it's all good. It's all raw, healthy, living food. And if 2 Lara Bars were what I needed today to get through the day eating raw, then so be it!

It's my weekend!!! So I have 2 days to rest a bit and let my body do what it will. I am so exhausted, for no reason. I'm looking forward to sleeping and eating lots and lots of fruit and greens tomorrow. And possibly Lara Bars ;-)